Weekend fun

I miss going out with you love. I have had some pretty awesome nights here in Richmond. I am busy all the time with school and work...

BUT

I always make a little bit of time for fun. Whether its after work or before. Thats a lovely cleavage shot of my new good friends Durga and Raven. They are my derby bitches, real names Alisha and Kristen.

I cant wait until you visit me. I have so many new places to show you. I wish you had a fake id so we could really explore.

I want you to meet my new friends and see what derby is all about.
<3

Hello little boysss, little toysss

Me and Lepore studying.. Kinda, haha! :)

You have to meet him, he's such an awesome cat. A little bit on the crazy side, but hell, that's how I like `em.

Check out the 'hawk! It's pretty long, it'd be way longer if I didn't constantly trim it.

FYI: You can barely tell, but the room i'm in is our Art Studio.

You are so silly

I can be can't I?

You know it's pretty interesting; the name we choose Casiel. It's actually quite beautiful.

I wonder what it means, like as an actual word. Wouldn't be it be pretty fascinating if it's something that like connects our souls.

Oh Cassie,

I'm not gonna' write you a love song,

Hell; I'll just say I love you!

I hope that's good enough.

pretty, pretty

?

Im in a period of my life where I really need my good friends. It seems like those people that I actually feel that connection with, you and Heather, are drifting further and further away. I know you are busy, I can understand that better than some other people can. But don't shut me out of your life. It would be nice if you atleast posted now and then so I know how you were doing.

Did you realize your phone was still on when you had that conversation with your friends about me? It makes me wonder and question how genuine you are. You never spoke a word of any of what you said to me, ever. It was very hurtful to hear you talk like that about me.

Were you just covering your ass and making excuses for the past? Or do you really feel that way?

Ending Semester

It's that time of the semester where things start to wind down and get incredibly insane. I have set goals for myself this year, wanting to get my gpa up and improving my portfolio in general. Things are different for me in photography. I went from being mainly a digital self taught person with minimal darkroom experience. That class at PA was completely ridiculous and almost a waste of time.

I now have different ways of doing things. I have learned a lot. You can take pictures with film and then scan them. This is really helpful sometimes because medium format cameras have big negatives, therefore bigger enlargements. Its pretty neat. I love learning new things. I feel a little bit better in the darkroom but Im still learning.

I have a lot of things to do in the next two weeks.

• Extra Credit for Digital photo
• ec for womens studies due tomorrow
• ec paper for elements of design due Dec 4th
  
• Study for Women's Studies Final Exam Dec 5th
• edit and finish artist paper for digital photo Dec 5th
• photoshoot with kerry
• pictures from photoshoot, develop film and process prints
• Actual final for darkroom is due by the 7th, matted
• Finish editing, possibly reshoot for more pics for my digital final portfolio
• final crit for digital, Dec 10th

etc.

My puppies

My brother john

2d design.. I have to say, i dont love this class. Its alot of work in very little time. On top of that my young professor is very bland. Atleast this class ends 12/13

New hair

memories...

Do you remember this night? It was a big step in
both of us moving on to what is now an amazing friendship.

I was so pissed at you that night. Lol.

<3

Payment?

So I was wondering how you want me to pay you for the camera. Do you want a check or do you want to do paypal? Do you want it all at once, or can I send you half, then the other half? I have $150 for you right now. I sold my ipod. Im considering selling my point and shoot as well. I dont really need it. Its a nice Canon Powershot 6 mp camera.

The sooner I can get it the better because I could really use it.
I have projects to do in digital photo and its a lot quicker if I use a dslr.

Im so excited about the camera. :)

So just let me know whatcha wanna do

Two of a Kind

So here is something very interesting.

Heather has tmobile too, and Im on her top 5 or whatever.

She had me as the female symbol before I even got my tattoo.
Then last night we were playing with her phone and she changed
mine to a picture of me. Then I pointed out the fact that I was the
female symbol. And she was like, Yeah? And I hold my wrist up to her
forearm and we kinda smile.

:)

Goofing off in front of the cultural diversity building. This place had some really interesting pieces of art. You would love the contemporary art museum of chicago! That place had some amazing artwork. Some really crazy multimedia stuff. :)

Missed me missed me now you gotta kiss me.

Shoot

I did a photoshoot tonight with this mask and only underwear. Topless. On the floor surrounded by creepy old doll toys and my bunny.

Hi...

Blues

I have been having dreams lately about my hair. The problem with dreams is that they feel so real. I had a dream the other night that my hair was raven black and down to my boobs. It feels like reality until I wake up and it dawns on me. I do miss long hair now and then.

There are times that I feel incredibly unattractive because of my hair. Other times I feel really awesome.

Is hair really that important?

Sometimes I just want to shave it all off. Get a mohawk...

I think my mom is partly the problem. Anytime she sees old pictures of me she makes sure to tell me how pretty my hair was long, how pretty I looked. She doesnt mean anything by it but I guess it does affect me...

subconsciously

Critique?

mMm Dominos mmm

Woohoo!

I went winter shopping at a huuuge mall in the Burbs (Woodfield) with my friend yesterday,

It was alot of fun, I spent over 200 on stuff I needed though, and a few .. not so necessary things lol

I went with Jen, she's a friend of mine that I go to school with, she's pretty awesome.

Looooong as ride home, a bunch of ghetto ass people there.

Shit! Pizza just got here, time to go eat.

Love you!

Mobile posting

Its kinda hard to explain,

http://www.blogger.com/mobile-start.g

That explains it really well.

:)

I dont really remember how I did it, but once I did, I saved the email on my phone.

Posting text is limited to how many characters you have but sending pictures is easy. :)

Filthy && Gorgous

Toucha, Toucha, Toucha

!!Touch me!!

So now that I have a new phone (Which i'm lovin', it's the T-Mobile RIZR; Check it out!) I can do picture messaging and all that fun stuff, can you teach me how to update our blog VIA pictures from our phone?

On US CELLULAR it wouldn't work, but with T-mobile it definately should.

Let me know!

:)

"Two McChickens... PLEASE"

Oh and I love, to love ya' Baby.

So here's the deal, over the last month i've really sucked at updating our blog. Which is bad!
And to make it even worse, you've been consistantly updating.

I've just been REALLY busy with the promotion, new school, and all that jazz.

But this is important, and it's one of the few ways we can keep in contact on a regular basis without it every becoming a hassle.

So from now Cassie,
!!!EXPECT Regular UPDATES!!!

You need to post

New car

Book im sending you when i have money

Hurts so good

Photo book surface tension

Demons Ball

It would be cool if you could make it down for this but its really short notice.

Work it out

boo

Sorry I missed your call yesterday. I could have really used talking to you. I miss you a lot.

I'm glad things are looking up for you in your job and applying to school. That is so exciting. :)

Today and the last couple of days have sort have been hell for me. Monday I got into a car accident on the way to work. I was merging onto the highway and some douche bag rear ended me. This activated a domino effect making me hit the person in front of me and then another car. X_X It was pretty scary but I'm okay. I was so shaken up and freaked out. Heather was just getting off work and came to meet me. My front headlights are busted so she followed me home and gave me a ride to work. She didnt want me driving with busted headlights at night. I got a ride from someone else. The guy that hit me drove off so when the police report was made I was car numero uno. He could tell that there were some fresh scratches on my bumper though so that should be okay for insurance.

something positive...I met this girl named Yolanda. She goes by Yo yo, cute little puerto rican girl. Kinda butch, great style. She has this cute little skater style and a more black style I guess you would say. She is something good thats happened to me lately. She started working at walgreens not too long ago. While she was applying everyone was telling me I needed to meet her, or asking if I had. Heather was like, "Im going to need you guys to hook up." That was just when she was applying. Well Heather invited her over to her gfs house with me for dinner and cards. I picked her up and we went. Sparks flew. We went to the club together. I dropped her off and thats how it started. We are seeing eachother I guess and we kinda slept together twice. She is the first person in a while that I have met that is both respectful and has their priorities straight. :) More about her later.

Some bullshit....Heather had to change her schedule at work because they caught on to her mon-fri 8-4. Technically you arent allowed to do that because it isnt fair. So she decided she will work monday nights every other week....which screws me over because thats one of my three shifts. Did I mention I only work three shifts now? Meaning on those weeks I would need to work Sundays. The whole reason I changed my schedule was so I would have more time for schoolwork.....ahhhhhhhhhh. Her reasoning? Thats when she wants to work and she has seniority and first choice....me being second. We kind of got into it earlier. She's pissing me off.

Oh yeah. Then I happened to check my balance to find out that Ballys charged me 49 dollars....I cancelled my membership way back at the end of June because I knew there wasnt a facility up here and that I wouldnt have time to go in va beach. I was in a three month contract and paid 80 dollars towards two months where I wouldnt be there... So they charged me today... What the hell? I already paid for two months I didnt use the facility and then I get charged again? Apparently Im on auto-pay. I explained to them that I canceled the membership because there isnt a ballys here in richmond. WTF?? So she said she can refund my money...7-10 days. Well in between that I have checks floating around. So yeah.

grrrr


And I have a shit ton of hw to do.

ps- i miss you hard core and we need to talk soon and schedule you coming down here

You have new Picture Mail!

pic whore

Half assed hawk

New cut

I can hawk it too

- Amy Winehouse Lyrics

idea

I was just thinking about shows I want to apply for. It made me think of an idea for this blog. We should post about different opportunities we come across and share. Whether its some juried art/photography show or just a really helpful website. A sort of inter-networking thing. What do you think?

35 mm slide

Catie belly

famous?

So I am very proud of the fact that you are my best friend.

So...when someone mentions they went to TCC in Portsmouth I name drop. :-D Ive met several people who have met you/had classes with you. You leave a lasting impression hon.

I know you will be big some day. I look up to you and wish I had even an inkling of the impression that you have left on me and others I have encountered.

<3

lookie here

I just ordered this beauty. We are required within my department to have a medium format camera.

This is a twin lens, medium format, 120 film camera.


"Made between 1956-1961, the Yashica LM is similar to the Yashica C but has a built-in uncoupled selenium light meter under the hinged nameplate. It has the 3-element design, coated, Yashikor 80mm f/3.5 lens with a Copal MX 1-300 shutter.

This is an absolutely outstanding camera. The lenses are beaitfully clear with no scratches. The focus is smooth. The shutter fires nicely on all speeds. The self-timer works perfectly. The meter is working nicely but we know it cannot be considered accurate when compared to a modern light meter."

Throw back

lol Cassidy! lol

Obviously i'm pretty fucked up right now, i've been hanging with Charles and Jenny for most of the day,

Charles and I went shopping at the HIP (Harlem Irving Plaza) mall today, reminded me of old times with us. Just shopping, spending money we didn't have, buying things we didn't need.

Made me think,

Damn girl, I really miss you!
(But only because you're amazing)

Anyway, I spent almost $200

After shopping we went back to his place ordered a Pizza, then jenny came over, and maaaaan we went and got some Jello and got TRASSSSSSSSSSHED.

JELLLLLLLOOOOOO SHOOOOOOOOTSSSSSS
Those mother fuckers creep up on you,

I did like nine or so,

I'm at home now,

Miss ya' babe.

(Sorry I haven't responded to your previous message yet, i'll do so when i'm sober)

reloj

I have so much on my mind right now. One thought that can't seem to go away....not having enough time.

There isn't enough time to do all thats needed/wanted. There aren't enough hours in the day. That saying sounds so cliche but so true. My biggest concern is getting things done. I am a workaholic. I work as much as I can and have 19 credit hours in school.

"Will you be able to keep this up?" This meaning 29-32 hours at Walgreens, 3 hours VCUarts work study, 19 credit hours, 3-6 hours of roller derby, plus hw, and attempts at working out a week. My mom was concerned when I was explaining scheduling/time management things the other day. I told her that I really don't have a choice. Independence is important to me. I am not totally self sufficient in the least. I don't have all the knowledge required to take care of myself totally. I have confidence that I would be able to but I know I don't hold the wisdom.

But besides the whole independent thing, I really just want to be there for my mom. She has always been there to me, encouraging me, teaching me, and telling me that "We will figure it out somehow." No matter what the circumstance, she would work towards it. I want to be able to do as much for myself as possible because I feel I owe it to her.

I think about the fact that my writing really concerns me. I wish I had the same skills of expressing myself with writing, than I do with my art. My mom described my writing as everything that comes out of me head. Shouldn't it be? I guess its more of an organization thing. Then there is the whole part of portraying what I really want to get across.

Overwhelmed is what I am. I have an extreme urge to excel in all I do. I want to be a good employee, friend, student, and athlete (derby). I want to do well in school but I also want to work as much as possible so that I can pay my rent. I want to be able to afford the things I need. Not feeling guilty for spending money on necessities.

Robotic. I have my daily schedule. Its pretty set in stone with school and work but little things pop in inbetween. I might not have that set but its pretty evident that something will be going on.

I want more time. More time for class. More time to do my homework/projects. Time to enjoy the readings in Womens Study and to research my chosen topic for English 200. More time to sleep. More time to spend with my friends.to explore who I am. to love. to work. to skate...........

more time.

How do you. . block a number on a cell phone? This chick Jay will not leave me alone, and not in a good way either. Jesus she freaks me out.

.. Are you insane?

"No i'm not, you mother fucker!"

Haha.

I'm watching clips of Serial Mom on youtube right now, this movies is hilarious. Yet another reason why John Waters is amazing, and Mink Stole & Kathleen Turner did a wonderful job.

Anywho,

Man I worked some crazy hours these last two weeks, yesterday was my first day off in two weeks and it was too sweet.

Smoking, Relaxing, playing with Lepore, watching movies, I definately dug it. That is until I got sick lol!

I ordered a pizza and wings, ended up eating the whole thing, Brian had to come home and take care of me

After we watched Blades of Glory,

Ended up being a fun day off.

:)

Just had the most horrifying day dream ever. Im on my way to work from va beach and passed a semi. I started thinking about what would happen if I died right then. I thought about gettin rear ended by the truck and smashed into a car in front of me. It was really vivid and I looked at my phone on my console. My first thought was that no matter what I would call my mom and somehow let her know that I love her a lot. It would be very important to me to talk to her and let her know how much she has affected me. I almost started crying thinking about how horrible it would be because I would not see my family anymore.

Would you still?

.....Light my candle?

You were saying that we need to post more pictures. I think that we should try to put a few on here now and then whenever there is a chance. Doesn't really matter what it is.


A) It makes our blog purdy
B) It can be inspiring
C) We can see what the other has been up to

<3

paycheck

I got my first check today and mannnn do taxes suck. After taxes it was around 395 or something. It really sucks but my tax return will be nice. I wish I could work full time. :( Oh well, I am busy enough as it is. I don't know where I would fit the hours.

Rent is due tomorrow and I paid two days early. :-D I'm good like that. My mom transferred me money to cover the cost of the books. So right now I have a good amount of money left after rent. However, I still have to pay my utilities and Cable/phone/internet bills. I am trying to spend the minimum of money so that when rent day comes along, I am not pinching pennies to get it in.

Well I just wanted to stop by and drop a little note off. Lol. I'm pretty toasted and ready to crash. Anywho, I love you.

<3

p.s.-try to answer your phone sometime. It's friday out. I know you are out sluttin' the town.

Beautiful Escape

I love...

.Music.


Seriously.

"Samson went to bed,
Not much hair left on his head,
He ate a slice of wonderbread,
And went back to bed"

It's so powerful,
and I love the way the certain music is just so relatable,
and incorporates into every day life.

I need to start going to more shows!

Coin Operated Boy

Weeeee!

I got $$$ today,

Guess how much?
850.00

Nice, right?

Man I had been broke these last two weeks, because I got the Wii, but it's cool, that overtime paid off.

:)

Rumors

Cute little fashion shop on campus.
Ill take you there sometime. I love the shot I got here.
<3

Books?

12.85 Craft of Research
37.00 My half of Stokstad's Art (Brief)
16.30 A Writers Reference
96.51 Photography 9th ed
35.83 Photoshop CS3 Classroom in a Book
12.50 Listen up:Voices..(wmns study book)
12.49 Andrei Rublev
47.00 Women's Voices Feminist Visions
69.50 Looking at Movies...

=

349.47

Buying books for college? EXPENSIVE

Always one foot on the ground..

Y'know Cassie,

It's funny, why do I always attract straight men? There's a number of guys at work that flirt with me, two specifically Jason and Pete, both black, both thuggish, so I find it to be EXXXXTREMELY funny.

Jasons more open with it, IE; him rubbing my ass or pinches my pierced nips.

What is it about me that's so appealing to straight guys? Obviously none of these guys I would even consider being in a relationship with, but it goes back to Sam, and various guys from back in VA.

I'MMA HEARTBREAKER
DREAM MAKER
LOVE TAKER

Work was pretty busy today, I ended up closing. I work with a very funny group of people, definately mix. It's more like a bunch of friends, than just co workers.

Anyway,

We need to start posting pictures and shit, I have a pretty awesome idea for you, relating to me. I'll post about it later,

Until next time (Few minutes probaly)

Love ya,

Cuntalicious

Escape

There are some tranquil places to go here in richmond. They are quite beautiful. Thats at maymont park.

Cassie's Schedule

Fire Alarms

Last night I had the rudest awakening, ever!!! I didn't even get to sleep until almost three and then at four something all five smoke alarms went off in the house at once. I jumped out of slumber feeling like I was having a heart attack. My heart was beating so quickly it was about to beat right out of my chest. We looked around the house and there was no smoke or fire. There wasn't really a reason for them to go off. About ten minutes later they go off again. We decided to call 911 and the cunt didn't help one bit. lol. So we took the battery out of one and it disabled the rest. So instead of incessant alarms, we get this chirp every minute to let us know we need to put a battery in.

A maintenance guy came by from our rental office and said an electrician would come sometime today. It sucks. So annoying.

So I'm pretty tired to say the least.

Bowl

Is this thing on?

.Wow.

What a year this has been, moving to chicago, new job, new photography, new friends, new everything..

But you know what? None of it compares to the love and bond I share with my best friend, Cassie.

You play a rather large role in this crazy B-movie, known as my life.

And I wouldn't have it any other way,

This is going to be a fun, and dare I say, bad ass new adventure for us! :)

-Raphael